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old departures, new beginnings


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it´s a losing battle: merciless motion of hands, the subtlety of digits shifting shapes, upon our wrists we keep the weights that drag us down, we´re all defeated trying to keep up with all these days and nights that run away, dragging us all along with it, refusing to leave us unchanged, merciless motion of hands, folding over constantly, around and around, no body can be certain of its form, try holding on to something, falling to bits and pieces, everything`s left traces and overnight winter arrived plucking even the last leaves with its burning cold, time erases everything.
repetition, repetition over and over again, we´re going in the only direction that we know: it´s always only backwards, the past is here to stay, rewind the tape and discover traces of our dna, stagnant, summarized existence, we revolve around the same narrow-minded coward´s dictionary, all meaning already attributed, everything right where it belongs constant and consistent, a life passed in subjunctive prolonged-infinitely, all the would haves, could haves and should haves prolonged infinitely, security, security, try so hard to prolong this infinitely, none of this really matters anymore, it´s so quiet here, a numbed pulse, a flatline.
there´s no running away from this, there´s no stopping this slow decay, a little more everyday comes apart and breaks away, things are splitting at the seams and in time give way to what´s hidden underneath, things better left uncovered, try holding on to this, try making loose ends meet, you´re holding on to this with all you´ve got, but when it´s against the odds of time and space you can only live in denial for so long, because you can hear the glaciers calve from miles away, and in motion waves recede, increasing the gap in between, and that ringing in your ears fades away with distance, and now our disappointment sits between us, but it´s alright, it´s ok, nothing ever stays the same.
apnea 04:21
there´s no way back from here, i´m past the point of no return and it is too late to stop, somewhere i went wrong, on the dark side of the moon and it´s getting harder to breathe, now i am along for the ride, besides what else is there to do, it´s a feeling of slipping, slipping without falling, should have known better, should have seen the signs, the flashing lights, go on and off, put your head in your hands, there´s darkness growing down the corridor, the lights flicker and go out, i see cracks all around me, all sides are caving in on me, one more chance, just one more chance to get everything right, now all it takes is one false move and i´m gone.
heartless 02:50
no, everything is not alright and you just can´t always force a smile, the compromises and demands, the teeth and excrements, all these wars of position - they scratch and claw at you, break you down piece by piece, at a new low - "what have i become, whose face is this, my features begin to blur, my reflection i don´t recognize anymore, oh my contradictions, my many contradictions, i´m dying little deaths and living petty lies", to walk through fire well is what matters most now, heartless, in a heartless world try not to lose yourself.
in and out of doorframes, it´s just a brief smile and then we´re in the company of white walls and strangers again, old departures welling up, you´re moving out of focus, fading away from view, getting smaller and smaller, into the void, blackened nothing, seems i´m all distance and time lost, i´m the great disappearer, every step is a separation now, putting more miles between us, mixing memory and desire, and it´s going to be a cold and lonely winter, a year with no light and a long, long way from home, in the company of white walls, half hearts in its chest, we crawl in and out of empty beds and sing ourselves to sleep in cold, cold sheets and wake up all alone, this is no kind of home.
coming home 03:29
regardless 03:49
you fight best on a night like this, every weapon pointed at you, all the voices hurl their insults, while you crawl through teeth and excrement your dream is being strangled, you fight best on a night like this when reason`s kicked in the gut, when the chariots of gloom encircle you, you fight best on a night like this when their laughter smears the air, when the kiss of death is mistaken for love, you fight best on a night like this when the game is fixed and the crowd screams for your blood, you fight best on a night like this when you rise up against the impossible and move on regardless.
fear 04:14


released April 16, 2014


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